Synopsis "Why Me: Mourning the Loss of a Child"
When I lost Austin to a four-wheeler accident, my world came to a screeching halt. It hurt to breathe, and I was completely consumed with heartache, sadness, and despair. How would I survive without Austin? How would I be able to go by his bedroom each day, knowing he would not be there. The pain was excruciating, and I thought my tears would never stop. I went to a very dark place in my life and did not care if I lived or died. As a Christian, I knew Austin was in heaven, but the selfish part of me could not accept his death. Through friends, family, therapy, and prayers, I found the courage to move forward with my life. This book is about my journey to find God again and learn to lean on him. Friends and family will always disappoint us and let us down, but God never will. I offer encouragement to my readers who have struggled with the loss of a child. This book mirrors what each grieving parent must go through and how to accomplish living without our child. We will be forever changed. We will never be the person we used to be; but with determination and acclimation, we will emerge, eventually, more aware of life changes and more in tune to God's will for our lives.
